I just went through a break up. Just lost a relationship that lasted for 2 years and 4 months exactly. (Yes, we broke up on our “monthsary”) And I just want to share this.
Is the relationship a lost for us? Do I have regrets? Do I still love him? Does it hurt? Sigh.
Of course, it’s a lost for me. All the things that we’ve been through all those years. All those fights, the negativeness we had for each other, all those discussions we had. Those hugs, those tender kisses, those little things that he did that always made me smile. Definitely a big lost for me, but I have no regrets loving him, or should I say “loved” him. I gave my best and almost my all but I guess it’s just not meant for us to be together anymore.
3rd question, I don’t really know the answer. I decided a long time ago that I don’t have any feelings for him anymore, that I don’t love him, that it’s my commitment to him that’s making me stay with him. But now, it’s somehow different. It still hurts. It’s like a punch in the gut. And it really sucks to be me right now. After all, it’s what I wanted for quite some time now, freedom. And F**K I got it on our 28th “monthsary”! You know the feeling of being strong all this time, well I guess I am not that strong.
What went wrong? I don’t have a clue, but here’s his last text for me :
"This is my last text for you. I don’t want to be in this relationship anymore. You better look for another man that will maybe make you happier. Please, don’t treat him the way you treated me. Don’t worry, I’m not mad. This relationship just seems unclear now. Thanks for all the memories. And I will be just here whenever you need me. Goodbye."
That’s his side. But I know I gave it all for him. I guess my best wasn’t good enough for him. I respect him and I think it’s better for us to part ways. I’ll start rebuilding myself again.
To you, I loved you and I’ll always cherish those days we had. Guess forever’s just a word. Goodbye.
- Track: Easy
- Artist: Rascal Flatts ft. Natasha Bedingfield
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